You know when something really trivial happens and no one else notices, but to you it kind of feels like the World has stopped until you process those thoughts and feelings?
Something like that happened to me. It happened probably two months ago but I still can’t shake the way it made me feel. Swirling emotions of being attacked, ignored, ostracized, feeling angry, upset, embarrassed and just generally on edge.
I know you’re wondering what on Earth could have happened. And I’m going to tell you, but only if you promise not to laugh. OK, are you ready?
Someone blocked me on Twitter.
Why would I even bother getting upset over something that really is so flipping trivial?
I can’t explain it.
I guess it’s rooted in the fact that I thought I was a fairly nice human being. I don’t intentionally ruffle any feathers and keep to myself a fair bit. Basically, I just feel like it is totally uncalled for and rude. Which makes me want to expose the horrible side of this person to everyone else who seems to be blissfully unaware of it.
So many times over the last month or two I have wanted to vent my frustration on SM and call them out on it, because as much as Seth loves me, I am sure that he is tired of me rehashing all the possibilities for someone to decide to do this, especially because I can’t think of any.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I don’t think about it every second of every day, but every now and then I see their name pop up on my feeds and I just want to punch my screen. It’s disturbing and I hate how it’s making me feel.
But writing is cathartic right? Which is why I am here.
Because at the end of the day, whether they like me or not shouldn’t matter to me. Not everyone is going to like me. And that’s OK.
The views and opinions of “trolls” on the internet should be as insignificant to me as a fart. A short time of stinkiness and then it’s over.
So it’s over.
Here is what I choose to focus on instead – because in case we had forgotten, this matters more.