It was just another day for us.
Me clutching both girls by the hand, reigning both of them from trying to hop into the road while trying desperately to miss the cracks between the paving stones. Seth was carrying our enormous nappy bag over one shoulder, with a sleeping Knox tucked into his shoulder. We were all hungry, we were slightly lost and Knox was getting heavy.
We rushed past the Vida Cafe where two ladies were having a coffee date. As our rather frazzled but fairly happy brood passed them, one of the ladies commented something about whether we would consider having more kids. It was a brief moment that we are fairly accustomed to, I guess seeing our little circus running past can be alarming enough to feel the need to comment on it. Like I said, we’re used to it, so we kind of laughed it off and continued our journey.
A couple of seconds later, Kyla was tugging at my arm. When I looked down at her she said, “Mommy, 3 is enough hey?”.
I did a bit of a double take. I mean, seriously, how did she put that all together and probably, more importantly, I have said that often enough to make it stick in her head…
There are many moments in my parenting journey that I look back on and cringe.
It could be the time that we accidentally gave Kyla a bowl full of formula that we had mistaken for porridge (or any of the things mentioned in that post actually) or so many other times that don’t even make it to the blog (because you can’t put a funny twist on everything you know).
But this one in particular had me slightly stumped as to why I felt so bad about it. I think at the root of it is that I don’t want them to ever think that they are a burden and isn’t that basically what “3 is enough” kind of implies?
Yes, sometimes life is hard, the sleepless nights are tough, the bills are even tougher and sometimes I snap more than I want to, but I couldn’t be happier. I have always wanted children. I have mentioned it before, but I was so broody before we had kids, that I would come home from visiting friends with babies and just cry and cry and cry. My 3 babies have very thoroughly filled that aching gap in my heart.
There are many things that I value in this life, my business, my blog, my “me time” and so many other little things too, but at the forefront of all of those is my family. To me there is nothing more important that being so very present in their lives to ensure that they know that they are loved and cherished.
We may not always have everything perfectly under control, but at the root of it, I don’t think that even matters.
Also Coco, is possibly the happiest running dog I have ever seen!